When you want to do something new, pleasent, great, you would say: "I will do that, I have to do that. Thats great." And then an unknown mechanism arise:  "This is not the right place, not the right time. There are lots of tensions, lots of problems unsolved, I have no plan yet. My mind is blocked." And then you give it up. And it happens again and again and after some years you will find that you have done nothing but just normal, daily, wretched stuff!!